Hmmmm( mixture )

Nowaday many thing start to happen.....
I dono where got start to talk about wat...
I just feel myself are kinda blur and I don even know who am I??
Since tat day I accidently knock my head ,
I feel I should start to changes....
Do everything by myself better den relay on someone...
No one can be belive and nothing is impossible for me...
From now on , I feel tat being alone is something interesting...
At last I understand my classmate vincent so strange..
I think I am right ....
He be alone becoz got some reason even myself cant explain..
once I was so stress and problematic , I choose to boycott myself...
After thana class , I go alone to cafeteria to have breakfast..
I reject all my fren and I just wna to be alone...
On tat time , I feel tat without anyone i still can live,
I can eat alone , drink alone , read news and just sit and wait for time pass....
After tat , I even walk alone to the library to do homework and online..
I sitting there for more than 2 hour , without talking wit anyone..
I feel tat I am quite fine becoz lonely is the time I can focus on...
Hmmm
talk about girls ........
I feel tat is a end time for me to think of girl anymore..
It make me getting more and more tired...
No matter how desperate , how much feeling I have,
Is time for me to just keep on my heart...
Since many sad incident has happen ,
I feel tat is enough now...
Everyting just keep in heart and wait de fate...
If I am fate and destinate to be with , I am happy about it
If not , I jst forget about it and wait the one Where It belong to me...

Something I don wish to know is already happen...(I am a BEE)

At last something I don wish to know and happen it already start...
I saw it and I knew it..
It stated very clearly in there...
No hope and even a chance...
Hmmm is came to the ending...
Is start to makes me feel sad and despress now...
I dono why I would feel like tat...
May be I am over a limit...
I try on it but i fail lastly...
May be I am the bee to be choosen...
So just change myself to become a perfect bees..
I am not the suitable one to have the honey ,
but doesnt mean I don have cup of honey...
After this news I get , my fren send me a good words
"
rmb there's lots of honey(madu) out there, u r a bee....
 the bee doesnt mean have to suck that particular honey ma rite?
rmb wat i say in da gym juz now

we change ourself to make ppl 2 have an impression on u....
make dem regret for not choosing u as their bee...
when dey regret, it's all over...
cause u ady got a perfect honey out there"
After reading this...
I feel tat, now doesnt judge my future...
I will be more better in the coming future...
I knew it and I feel it..
Thanks to some best fren support me..
2 of them are totally good to me..thanksz~~

Getting worst and weak...

Hmm I am getting weak already...
At last it came along...
I feel tat is time to take de next step..
I feel like stop sleeping and do wat I want
and wat I wan to do....
I feel tat time are really short ...
Reall Reall SHORT~~~
I just read my fren blog ,
She wrote something emotional to her..
Yesteday she told me already..
may be she to sensative on it...
Good to know she forgive her fren ..
In this world still got such kind people..
Hmmm
As wat I know , this world~~
Everyone are selfish , now they are good
but suddenly they will turn to bad...
Ur best fren are ur only best enemy....
For me now , since some incident happen to me ...
Everyone for me is just de same ,
Sure got something bad will happen...
See is early or late..
So unfortunately , I am the early from fren..
so hope everyone think , think think clearly
about ur fren near u..
I and getting worst now ,
I feel like faint off , but I am in insomia condition...
When i left , where wouls i be??
I am weak , tired and tired...
hmmm

Something happen among myself

Hmmm Is already 12 something ,
I feel tired and dono Why I couldnt sleep...
My mind keep on thinking on something
after having conversation on phone wit fren...
I wan to ask a question very long ago..
Actually wat is a person actually thinking in thier mind???
Wat actually I wan??
Haiz....sad...
I feel like I was dream a lot for many impossible things
I am too much on the past and the future...
I feel like i am going to mad soon de la...
Why I am totally difference from last time..
Getting more and more emotional NOW!!!
I can control myself and I feel tat I wan to hide aside and cry..
nowaday i getting a bit of girlish already..
OMG...I going to be a gay???
mmm dono, but I feel I currently is still like on girls de wo...
I alredy InSOMIA and now still thinking a lot..
I need a girls to control me already..
but I think don have one can do so...
Haiz.. sad..Don say till girls..
IS more and more sad... girls are all same..
Hmmm I this few month getting not feeling well..
I alway sleep late and everything I sleep ,
I saw myself doing thing , and I feel like my soul is out from my body...
wat happen to me????
IS ther any sign for me??
or is there just a dream only??
I dono .... I start to feel like getting to cry loudly..
I don wan to continue now ,
I afraid I will cry when I feel something will happen on me...
byhez

Stress , bored , lame...haha so busy and wat la...huiyo..

Oppss~~~
Long time din update for my blog already..kekezz
I be busy for many things so I don have the time to update...
So many assginment , work and stress things come upon me..
I feel like settle up everything path by path...
Never think of girl currently becoz is something will effect my emotion..
SO~~
Just work on my assignment and wait I have free time I will update my blog..
many thing I will try to update becoz I have to write alot...
To my angel which stay tune for my blog ,
pls be patience , I will update soon..
Thanks yea..hehezz
Update soon~~~byezz

Bahau roadshow (working for celcom...)

Wao...Last sat morning 5 am I wake prepare and go to work at bahau (N 9)...haha
I though is a intresting roadshow but just feel that is ok ok only la...haha
there de feeling let me feel quite oka...haha
there the girls are quite open minded and are quite daring...haha
I wit my fren pass my a group of there working there...
They 'cuit' at us...
My fren turn back they still making tat sound and my fren tell me they are calling me..
Oh my..
I tell my fren just ignore and work la...
there are quite funny..
We pass by and let them have a short conversation wit them...
most funny one is a girls takes my phone miss call her phone ...
err many thing happen la... another wan to know my fren , and then like ask me all tihs and that..
at night we when to watch 2012...
hohohoh...My boss belanja le...ngek ngek..
While almost the ending,..
someone sms me and ask me about me and see whetever can be fren wit me or not..
ask me to call her a while..
I was like , OMG ...who is this..
When I reach hotel , I call back and I know who is it..
Is the one which use my phone to miss call one...
OMG.... she is kinda funny also becoz talk many crap wit me..
hmmm I feel that there like din see before guy appear is it???haha
Next day we go back de same place again... hmmm look lame becoz ranining..
Oh one cool things happen..
A team of celcom sweeper are here..
wao man... cool la...
4 police bike , one team harleydavidson , 4 sweeper car and 20 celcom car..
wah...Dey come and join us...haha
So damn ying lo.. like agong coming like tat....haha
hmmm we are seperate into 2 team to go for rovling then back kl...
I wit boss stay behind and throw my fren jack to incharge..
My boss ask me join is becoz she wan me handle for her team..
They are still fresh so she alone cant handle and need me back up..
No choice , since i holiday so just go play ba...haha
Phew many thing happen then..I jst not feeling to write here.. I am tired..byez
Cincai write only..no mood in writing blog ....
Nowaday dono wat happen to me le...swt...

busy , busy busy.... everyday pun busy...

It been whole month I din eat dinner wit my family liao la...
I miss my mom , dad and sister...
alway come home is dey not at home or sleep already..
Am i really tat busy??
Yea I am a...Alway work work study study...
Where got time accompany them...
It been so long i din eat breakfast and dinner wit them already..
damn missing the feeling le..
Alway eat at outside wit fren when at setapak..
wao..Damn no mood when think back...
Hmmm at last yesterday night I cancel all date and eat wit my mom...
The feeling is so nice and happy..
At last I can eat wit my family....haha
So nice the fish , meat vege and soup..
ARGH~~~So long din eat already a...
So damn delicous a..
busy for so long, din even one day eat till so happy and a lot..
Miss the feeling yesterday..
Whole day whole life beeing bussy..
I wan to work hard and study hard..
i wan to be one of the richest man in malaysia..haha
Sot jor...haha
byez nitez